Hiding or honouring awareness?

Is it possible to honour all of my feelings, even the ones I would rather not have, without getting sucked into the quicksand of emotional discomfort?

I am learning that in addition to making sure my body’s needs are met, with hydrating, eating and moving my body often, I benefit from acknowledging my Being, and it’s awareness.

Sometimes I am aware of emotions, low mood, lethargy, or anxiety. Especially when an emotion is intense, and has a ‘sudden onset’ and no obvious trigger, I have been asking the valuable question “Is this mine?” And I was surprised, at first, to find that often, what I was aware of wasn’t mine to begin with.

I had frequently been making the error of feeling something, and assuming it was mine, simply because I was feeling it. After I had assumed it was mine, I made it mine, adopted and instituted it, and all of it’s limitations, as real.

I have noticed lots of judgement in the litany of my mind’s chatter. I notice that when I asked if the judgement was mine, the response was easy, and Light, in my body, nope, totally not mine. Cool.

I perceive that judgement limits awareness, and creates separation. So far, I vastly prefer connection and awareness, and I am learning to notice judgement when it arises. I can acknowledge that judgement isn’t fun for me or my body, and I would like to choose to create from a place of zero judgement.

In transparency, I have also noticed myself hiding self-limiting choices, and justifying old habits and patterns that I would very much like to be free of, in totality, for all eternity. It is amazing how many ‘brain-calculations’ it takes to hide something from yourself, something you would rather deny, ignore, avoid, and escape from.

What if I could be choosing more allowance of me, right now? What if when I choose total allowance of me, and true caring for all of me, I can be and receive enormous contribution here?

So far, one of my hardest homeworks is to consistently choose to perceive, know, be, and actually choose to be all of me, and my extraordinary capacities, in total allowance of me, and all of who I Truly Be.

What if, when I am in allowance of it, my awareness is enormous, and extends much further than the edges of my body, my home, or even the planet?

What if I can open more choice for my body, mind, and Being, by engaging different language when I notice emotions? Would saying that I perceive anger give me more choice than saying I feel angry, or I am angry?

I perceive more choice when I say “I am aware of anger,” or “I notice anger here.”  I find that when I say “I am angry,” I am defining and limiting me with the anger, rather than with the possibilities my awareness and perceptions provide.

It is a small shift, and yet, for me, it seems to provide just a little bit more space to choose with, and I like creating with more choice, freedom, and ease. Yes please. More freedom, choice, and ease, please.

What do you want to choose? Judgement of you, or Allowance of you?

Im gonna give allowance some more practice and get back to you.

Peace.

 

What could I be choosing?

Sometimes I like to ask myself questions, without expectation about an answer, more like planting questions seeds, and nourishing them with openess, gratitude, and reverence.

This question is on high rotation for me today:

“What could I be choosing, that if I would choose it would create infinite choice, infinite possibility, and true freedom?”

Yes please. More of that, please.

What if breath carries Love?

What if…

Deepening breath, deepens our thoughts.

Breathing deeply, helps us communicate our Truth with Love.

With each Love-full breath, we can invite Love in, and help it grow.

By nourishing me, with my breath, I am nourishing you; radiating Love from a place of full.

I am learning that my breath is one of my most powerful tools to support my body, and remain harmonious, even around those who are suffering, or upset.

 

the peeps I serve

I am seeking a word, or term, to refer to the people I serve,  that is shorter than the current term, ‘the people I serve.’ I am seeking to find language to describe the people I serve, that is concise, and and feels accurate.

It was considered best practice to refer to the people I serve as patients, in the last incarnation of professional clinical practice, but, even then, the word ‘patient’ left an unbalanced, ‘power over’ flavour in my mouth.  I feel that in my current clinical practice, I am reaching for a term that feels more equal; something that honours the wisdom and sovereignty of the people I serve. I am seeking a word that honours the collaborative process, with equity; I am not more powerful, or important, than the people I serve. We are equal peers in the process, more like colleagues, than patients.

I have tried the word clients, but it feels dissonant somehow. I have used the word ‘peeps’ to describe the people I serve, with more comfort, though it is not as easily understood a term, by as many people as would be ideal. I am seeking a term that can be general, inclusive, and still clear.

I am open to creating a word or term, so long as the word can be easily understood, and feels respectful in all of the aforementioned ways.

I welcome  the ideas and wisdom of the people I serve in developing appropriate terminology to honour the profound nature of the collaborative, therapeutic relationship we engage in the process of the profound healing work we nourish together.

Please feel free to share your thoughts, feedback, and ideas with me, either in the comments below, or an email: hhctraske@gmail.com

 

 

the juicy insight, and profound power of “Why?”

I was recently blessed to share time with a little person. By little person, I mean a person who is youthful, and little, and asks “why?” frequently. And by frequently, I mean a lot. A Lot.

I was reminded about the importance of that question. Answering Why, indicates our motivation, which can provide profound insight.

What if there was benefit in greeting your life situation with Loving reasons for every event, every activity, every thought, Idea, and interaction.

What if how I do what I do, and even what I am doing, matter less than why.

If every action I take is driven by a deep desire to align more fully, joyfully, and abundantly with Love, then I suspect that even my chores would be profoundly more nourishing, when the reason driving my action was Love.

What if, even taking out the compost, or folding laundry was a way to help me feel more Loved, Lovable, and Loving? I could aptly focus my thoughts on coming up with excellent, nourishing, self-Loving, prosperous reasons for why I do everything I do.

I am finding great joy and ease in indulging in choosing Love, consciously, and then attaching it to the menial tasks of my day to day life. It feels empowered, creative, and silly. Also, I am finding it much easier to do much more, and feel nourished, rather than depleted.

As a free, accessible exercise, that contributes to a conscious practice of Love and gentleness, this one feels like a winner to me. Now I am more aware of my ability to ask “Why?” and my faith in my courage to choose Love as the answer is growing, question by question.